Aug 30th 2008 Stefans family and friends took part in a ceremonial paddle out, to pay our respect's to Stefan and the wonderful life he lived. 25 people performed the actual "Paddle Out" while hundreds gathered at the end of Cayucos Pier to see his Ashes off. As I drove up the coast from Morro Bay it was the heaviest fog I had seen in weeks, you could barely see 100 feet, I thought of the ceremony and how the fog was not what Stefan would want for his Ceremony, so I praid to God that it would be sunny in Cayucos and I think Stef gave him a nudge! Because as soon as I pulled into Cayucos off the freeway, the sun came out and stayed out for the entire time! STAY TUNED, WE WILL BE ADDING STUFF TO THIS PAGE FOR STEF....SEND YOUR PICS TO INFO@azhiaziam.com
Stefan Wilson's Slideshow
Memorial Video for our brother Stef...
REST IN PEACE STEFAN WILSON (left) Aug 14th 2008.
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STefan, Vasser and Bart skateboarding huge fullpipe.
The following was taken from Steffans myspace page, written the day of his death:
dose'nt really matter , nothing in particular , anything I get to do is fun , I try to make every day count , but for nothing really , I have a beautiful daughter who I have'nt got to spend nearly enough time with , I've been a jerk , a thief , a liar , and a horriable person to say the least , I've been bad . I wish I could go back and make things right , I had the beautiful woman and child anyone could ever ask for , I chose to fuck that all up , but not because I did'nt love them , in fact I love them more than anything else in this world except , I don't really love myself , I've made every mistake in the book , I realize that , I think I have few and far between good traits , having fun and partying is'nt whats important , its fun but without being able to come home to your family , esspecially your lover and child is horriable , more so than any fun you will ever have , sort of canceling out all the things you did to try and forget , all the drugs , all the booze , all the stupid mistakes , the law will never give up , I will never forget my own family ! I miss them terribly , I reach out only to get shot down , I don't deserve them , they deserve the best of me the side I never show , I write this here cause its the truth , and I'm tried of lying , who knows what the future holds , do I go on to keep this up ? looking for somebody to love and only finding tramps , interested in nothing but phyical attraction , while I'm screaming for someone to love , well I do love someone , I love two someones but its hard for me to break the chains of drugs alcohol , and down right laziness , I wish I was'nt so charming , I wish I never knew what I have learn , I wish so many things , but wish'in is for suckas right ? time will only tell , and I have to accept what I am , and be better and thats what I will do , I'm a far cry from even started , but thats what I really want , thats my general interest , I don't even know if my old flame is interested , even after I "change" or get my life in order or whatever you want to call it , the wounds still bleed , and long after I thought It would be gone , I miss you kalea , I miss you katie , I'm still here , maybe not the man you thought I was , but the boy whos madly in love with you is , every day every hour every minute every second , I wonder how ? when ? why ? I wonder if we never get back to the way we were , what will you be to me in heaven ? how long does the pain last ? when will I be complete again ? when will I give up trying be something I am not not , and be what I have always been : a father , a man , a christian , and a kind hearted individual , even though you probably could'nt tell by the way I've lived my life , but deep down thats exactly who I am
